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Next post is 600!
Well, it is gonna be one hectic week... With setting up for matric fare for the Navigators tomorrow, going down to church to oversee Aaron and Amos while they study, thursday being at matric fair itself, friday with syc, most likely saturday with Gihon and then YE, and playing for main on sunday. That's not all, with another trip to the matric fair on monday. One busy week that!
Now I can really tell that school's starting up again. Not forgetting bidding round 0 commencing on the 21st and real bidding on the 25th... That will keep things a little tight as well. Also, my birthday is coming... Really turning 22 soon, and looking forward to it! I've really grown to be confident in the way I carry myself in the past few years after I turned 20, and looking forward to more as I grow older.
Resonance of Fate is over and done with! So now it's on to Assassin's Creed 2, which my cousin Serene has so nicely lent. Though my OCD is complaining about the number 2 at the back of that title, without playing the first in the series it's ok cos the character changes from the flagship game, which makes it at least a little more tolerable.
Well till the next post! A review of the past 100 posts is in order. =D
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2 more posts to 600!
To celebrate the occasion, was thinking of switching skins, but not very adept at it after forgetting everything after leaving school and not having computer lessons any more. I'm not a very tech savvy person, I'll admit. So I'll most likely be asking here and there for help. =)
Recently, especially this week, I've become sort of a designated driver, or a chauffeur in a good way. Driving Daryl around to school and back, and sending Darren into his 3 weeks of confinement at the Warrior's Hall at SAFTI MI. Also driving to dinner on certain days. Must say that I enjoy it, the freedom of having a vehicle I can use for the benefit of others.
Prepared for SYC bible study on sermon on the mount. And its a rather difficult topic to cover: Divorce and Oaths from Matthew 5:31-37. However there are a few biblical principles that can be drawn from those to apply to any other situation, and I hope I can bring these across well. Have decided to use a new medium of teaching, and see whether my cell members can appreciate it. =P
Next, updates on the leisure portion of my life. Resonance of Fate is almost done and complete, all that's left is collecting 3 more trophies, which include throwing 1000 grenades, of which I have thrown around 800+, and finishing the game a second time. The bonus dungeon is over and done with. Anime has reached 100 with the completion of Fate Stay Night, which explains the list posted previously. Practising for Chopin's Tristesse is still at the end of the second page. And finally, the story's at chapter 10 already! Fast. =D
Well, holidays are winding down, and what marked that fact is that the time has once again come to utilize the module preference exercise. I'll be doing a lot of psych modules hopefully.
PL2132 - Stats in Psych 2
PL3234 - Developmental Psych
PL3235 - Social Psych
PL3236 - Abnormal Psych
The last module will be a General Education Module, but haven't decided what it is yet hmm.
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Open my eyes, Lord, that I may see...
My haste to say, "You are wrong,"
My hesitance to say, "I am to blame,"
My frowns when the other guy or other team wins,
My smiles when I cross the finish line first,
My twenty twenty vision at finding cracks in others' character,
My halfhearted efforts to spot any flaws in myself.
Open my ears, Lord, that I may hear...
My laughter at the expense of others,
My cries when tables turn and the joke's on me,
My whoops when something awful happens to those I don't like,
My sighs when I'm the one who is kicked in the teeth,
My shouts when I detect sin in others,
My whispers when I am confessing my own.
Open my mind, Lord, that I may know...
My hardheadedness towards those who think I'm a jerk,
My open-mindedness toward those who know I'm Mr. Right,
My recall of "place and time" when I've been wronged,
My forgetfulness of "when and how" I've hurt others,
My doubt that others have a snowball's chance of escaping hell,
My belief that I deserved heaven all along.
Open my heart, Lord, that I may feel...
My hatred of sin when others are doing the sinning,
My love of sin when it's my hand in the cookie jar,
My judgment of those whose skin or beliefs differ from mine,
My compassion toward those who are basically just like me,
My rejection of those with a smudge on their cheek,
My acceptance of myself, despite the mud on my face.
Adapted from Rick Christian's Devotion for Students, November 28th.
One week till IPPT, and 6 posts to 600. =)
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Well, its only human to err. And err I did, terribly too I must add. Got angry over certain things I never should really let get the better of me, things only said in jest, and in that state of vulnerability I lost God along the way. And I'm only thankful that these things aren't counted against me after I sincerely seek Him once again. After all, despite being a leader and all, I'm only human, trying my best to overcome my weaknesses and flaws. Its God's grace that makes all this possible, and I'm thankful. The triangle plate on the car is now off, and I'm now officially in my second year of driving. As for Tristesse, I'm done with the first page and moving on to relatively more challenging portions of the song on the second page. More updates include the watching of a couple of new series, which will bring my anime tally eventually to 100 finally. Once I reach 100 shall post the entire list on the blog. Most recent anime I've watched would be Witch Hunter Robin. About a girl with the ability to manipulate fire having to hunt down other ability users called "witches" who turn evil and crazy after discovering and misusing their abilities. As usual, a pic! This one's of the main character in the series: Sena Robin.  More on the leisure front, I'm at the second last chapter: chapter 15 out of 16 of Resonance of Fate. Which is great! Gonna finish it, go for the bonus dungeon, and then speed run through it one more time to get the last few trophies. And once that's done can finally start on the games my cousin lent. This week shall be a week of rest, have no outstanding church related work to do, no very important things that need to be prepared for, so I'll take it and cherish it.
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And so the games day went by splendidly, with the making of new friends and forging of new bonds, and I must say I'm rather excited about the prospects of joint collaborations between Synthesis and YE. I was rather worried initially, but everything panned out pretty good. =)
Which brings me to reflect about why I've always been uptight when it comes to games, and here's where I bring you on a trip back into my memories. (Which we haven't done in a long time)
And so all the way back in primary 5. I was still a game loving person, especially when my form teacher praised me for my sporting actions during games, even daring to do forfeits for the sake of others and things like that. Because of that bit of encouragement, it made all the difference. Forfeits or being embarrassed didn't matter one bit to me at that time.
But all that changed just that year, with my first ever YE camp. And so there were games, which I participated gladly in, until this one charades game where we had to act out the underlined words in the bible verses. And I stepped up to do it, thinking that it'd be alright as usual. And I tried and tried to act it out but couldn't get anyone to solve it. Then after that the person in charge of the game told me this was how I should have done it... And when I saw the disappointed look on the faces of my team members I couldn't help but feel inadequate, especially when the way to act it out could have been so easy.
From then on my weariness in games became fixed, as if ingrained within me. I gained a fear of being embarrassed and letting my team down. Solo games were alright... But team games made me quiver in fear. From then on I knew the power of positive encouragement and a smile, because I didn't see it that day. And I knew that no matter what the outcome of games, to give the person giving his or her all that one smile would make things different.
Well, this fear still didn't mean hatred for games yet, perhaps only avoidance. But what happened when I was in sec 2 or 3 really changed everything. It was when my sense of integrity was beginning to form and going strong. A random indoor games day came along, and I was volunteered to be one of those up in front with a card containing the name of a character on my forehead, and asking questions to get my "identity". There were 4 of us called up, and we stood in front, asking the rest questions. Eventually everyone got theirs right, except me. I was well and truly stuck for awhile, but managed to narrow it down quite a good bit.
And then the unimaginable happened. Someone in the audience mouthed the answer to me, and I stood there horrified. Through that supposed act of kindness I was stuck in a moral dilemma. I could do one of two things. Say out the answer, and have my integrity broken, or stay there and suffer the forfeit. And I chose the latter. That wasn't just it. I stood in front for a good 15 minutes for them to figure out what forfeit I had to do, just because it was in the "rules" of the game, a penalty for failing miserably for the sake of protecting my integrity.
From then on I just saw how evil games could be, to the extent of you having to sacrifice your own sense of morality in order to be "safe" from punishment. From then on I saw games as bringing out the worst in human nature, and hated it to the core. And trust me, I've seen that "worst" a lot of times along the way. And that's why I make certain to follow every rule, and not try to look for loopholes in a game to gain an advantage, playing it fair and square.
Well, all that is now behind me, and I must say because of recent games days this fear and hatred has died down to a whimper. And credits go to the organizers and the people involved. For one, that smile and encouragement is now always present, and the games organizers choose not to put in a reward or punishment system, letting it be games for the sake of fun. Kudos to them for that. And I'm thankful. I've overcome it thanks to them.
But I never want anyone else to come to the same point of suffering as me when it comes to games. And I hope no one around me will.
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And so, 10 posts to 600.
And about 2 weeks left to taking off the triangle plate while driving.
I must say this week has left me a little tired. For one, every single day I've been waking up at 7am for no apparent reason... Which has left me with bouts of interrupted sleep, and the problem is that if I do go back to sleep for rest's sake I'd end up waking at around 11am, which is quite a problem for the completion of my daily to do list. If I choose not to sleep I'd end up very tired around night time. I've tried drawing the curtains to reduce the amount of external light, but it wasn't of much help... Any solutions?
The end of this week too was rather rough, with an almost forgotten music ministry meeting, an enjoyable SYC session that ended rather late, leading songs in YE and lastly playing for main service. This coming week will somewhat be along the same lines, with a simple Gihon cell session coming on wednesday, SYC on friday, and playing for Mega Games Day in both senses of the word (playing keys and games haha). Probably will turn down the request to play for main on Sunday again.
Its a typical June with the busyness, but I'm beginning to feel a bit of the strain, especially from leading songs. I do enjoy it, and I'm often blessed by it... But often because its not my natural gifting, it does tire me out to quite an extent. Unlike things like playing the bass and teaching at bible studies. Well at this moment of time I'll just keep working hard at it, and look forward to see more worship leaders being groomed in YE! =)
One last thing to note... I'm now into chapter 6 of my story! Good progress finally on one of my resolutions for age 21-24, which you can see on my sidebar of my blog. =D
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11 posts to 600! Well I'm almost done with Grande Valse Brilliante... Just a few bits of tying up to do, with portions on the 8th and 9th page still causing a bit of trouble here and there. But I think I can declare it finished within the week! This piece was certainly at a level higher than Raindrops, mostly because of the speed and the muscle memory involved, and the sheer length of it. But it was thoroughly enjoyable, allowing me to showcase part of my livelier side. And shall move on to Chopin's Tristesse soon. Quite excited about that, which will be a stark contrast from the waltz that I just finished. Time to switch moods from playful to melancholy. Soon I'll be playing 3 pages of a song that Chopin himself labelled as the best melody he'd ever written. Besides that I'm now halfway through Resonance of Fate, which is pretty slow. Being the perfectionist gamer that I am, made sure I got through every dungeon getting every item, finishing every quest and fighting every arena fight. More on leisure: I'm now getting close to the 100 anime mark, so now I'm watching Ghost in the Shell, a futuristic anime where humans have learnt how to store their consciousness in cyber brains, allowing for the mechanization of their bodies. Its about a crime fighting team tackling all sorts of cyber crime that arise from this new development in technology. Pretty interesting I must say.  And here's Motoko Kusanagi, the main protagonist of this series. Also I've now hit 10 pull ups and have been running 2.4km everyday in preparation for IPPT. Lastly, yesterday signified the beginning of the second year of friendship for Vanessa and I, so went over to her place to spend the time with her in celebration of this day. 7th June 2010. You guys may be wondering why this day is so important, after all we've all got many friends, who we've known for many years without celebrating this kind of thing. But this is special for both of us: the way that God brought us together was nothing short of amazing. Two like minded individuals with many things in common, able to understand each other amazingly well, brought together at a random BB GB junior camp which she might not even have turned up at. Its a happening that we both believe is God's wonderful grace for us. And since then life has never been the same. And I have to say, we've certainly brought each other closer to God throughout this year of friendship, and that is special for sure. Looking from the start of the holidays till now, lots of things have advanced, and I'm certainly thankful for that. And there's only one person I can truly give thanks to. Thank you God. =D
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